New Beginning

After some time of doing the same thing over and over you begin to question if the way that things are going is even right. You sometimes begin to doubt yourself and your methods of self fulfillment. It is times such as these where you need to step out side yourself and ask yourself. If I was someone else what would I think of me?

How would I rate my self from someone elses point of view. After doing this I have decided the following: There are trillions of dollars out there, Im sure as hell gonna get my slice of the american pie. I am going to be the best parent I can possibly be and make sure that I dont accept hand outs to give my daughter the life she deserves. Im gonna be sexy smooth and just give %1000 to reep my total %100. Make sense??

Well it does to me. I am outlining the way to be the happiest, best, most powerful me that I possibly can be. The possibilities are endless. Sometimes I think about all of the 15 year old jabillionaires out there and wonder why isnt that me?? Im smart enough Im pretty enough. Wheres my cut? Maybe Ill cure cancer, maybe Ill start my own soda company who knows??

I work hard and do what right. Well the gloves are coming off and Cait from VodkaNCheetos is now going to start doing things the right way. This will be followed in a few new blogs I am starting such as... ( to be continued)

Thanks for following. Let the force be with you.

Best For Baby

As of right now I am facing a dilemma. I got the offer of a lifetime. Dom ( baby daddys ) aunt offered to let us move in with her rent free.... Sounds perfect right? No rules, extra help with T boo. but for some reason I find myself being apprehensive, I have live in this house for 5 years now and to all of a sudden uproot without knowing what will come of my decision is a really scary thing for me. This would be an amazing opportunity. His aunt loves T and Me and Dom and shes sweet and nice and doesnt have a substance abuse problem which totally blows my mind. Its hard to find somebody like this nowadays.

... It just seems like I grew up but didnt really, if you know what Im saying. Im 18, a mom, a college student I want to be independant but I cant even make up my mind about where I want to live. I find myself wanting to please everybody but thats impossible but pleasing myself just seems completely out of the question...

Barely Legal

Last night I got a baby sitter and went to the local strip joint. Trust me, its really not my speed and I will admit I have taken some cheap shots at strippers. But after last night I have found a new appreciation for these entertainers.

First, when we arrived I proudly pulled out my ID and showed it to the bouncer. Then I proceeded into the strobe light lit club with poles in the tables and sat down and ordered a drink. A girl came over and offered me a dance but I declined as Im not really into the coochy.

As the night went on me and my best friend moved towards the stage and started tossing out our ones and yelling for the girls to strip. Then one of the girls ripped our shirts of and everyone cheered. It was a grand moment for me and the girls were sooo nice. I love exotic dancers!

Community College

So. I know its been a really long time since my last post and trust me a lot has happened. I just started another semester at LCC and am working towards my IDMS certificate and associates degree. And trust me I have been busting my ass!

This is the daily grind... I get up at 7 with my daughter I feed her, change her and dress her. I do some homework and maybe if Im lucky work in a quick snack. Then I play with her, boggle my mind about ways to make money, ponder my future, then I proceed to tuck bugaboo into seepy seepy for a nap. Then I do more homework, then I do more homework, then I get Tay Tay ready for bed, my bed, and do ... MORE HOMEWORK!


Can I just graduate already???

Heres a class frazzled mommy 101